emotionally disturbed

i'm trying to be a better person for everybody attached in my life; be it my family,sunshine or friends.i know sometimes i tend to be pathetic but it wasn't what i planned it to be.trust me.i will change.i promise.

i love every person mentioned above.so much that sometimes i tend to hurt myself in order to make them happy and satisfied.i hurt emotionally not physically.

i really want to be selfish but i just couldn't.why can't i be selfish when they are being selfish to me?it's unfair.yes indeed.

my life is not as fabulous as i think it would be.

no matter where or how or when,i love them.honestly i am.

i know something is wrong somewhere with me but i just couldn't figure it out.

hopeless;

tIm