First World Problem

So..first world problem for breastfeeding mommy is when you leave your breast pump at home and your office is like miles awayyyy.
Me on the other hand, all packed before going out and so yakin one semua dah bawak. I double checked everything.EVERYTHING.
I was about to unload the precious fluid when my sister text me telling me that I left the tube. How on earth am I supposed to pump when there's no tube meh? Aiyoo, acaner ni? mau meletop la sbb engorged. I need to unload for god sake. My sister buat lawak suruh pump guna tangan. Oh can I? erkk..it would take foreverrrrr!
To make it worse, I didn't drive to work today. Mr.Hubs sent me this morning. Andddd, his office is the other end of the world. I.WANT.TO.CRY.NOW.

Sila jangan leaking.

Silly me!!!!Silly me!!!!

I'm so excited to be back to the office...NOT!

hahahaha..so today is my first day back to the office after 90 days of leave. It was super hard for me to wake up this morning and lucky me that Mr.Hubs wanted to send me to the office today.  I love you baby! The little one macam tau-tau je mommy dah start keje hari ni so semalam dia acted up a bit, asyik terjaga je. That explains why I was late today. *LOL*
So Tim, silalah rajin ye. Jangan malas-malas. October until December adalah tough months sebab macam-macam kena complete especially my thesis. Dah tak nak pikir dah lepas ni. I just want to get over and done with it. Dah tak boleh nak keep calm dah. Once dah habis thesis we are going for a vacayyyyyyy!

Dah, senyum yang menyimpan seribu makna sangat tuuuuuu.hahahaha!
Okay later alligator, kena buat-buat rajin ni :P


Umar Rifqy & Uzair Rifdy

I was browsing through Umar's pictures when he was still my tiny baby and then I realized that Uzair looks similar like him. Copy and paste okay. Masa Uzair baby tak nampak sangat tapi dah besar ni lagi nampak sama. hahahahaha.

Umar Rifqy

Uzair Rifdy

Percaya takkk?? Sama takkk? hahahahahaha


Confinement period story

I'm currently multitasking. I'm reading, surfing and bouncing sleeping Uzair. Phewwwww,  I'm all good..I'm all good!

While I'm having this reader's block, lets rest for a while and update this blog. Lemme tell you about my confinement period story. My pantang days were great. I love being in confinement period. It's where you can feel the TLC all around the clock despite sleep deprived. BUTTT, this time around my confinement days are in the month of Syawal. Imagine not having to eat all the good food, it was such a torture. When people were enjoying their ketupat, kuah kacang and the list goes on, I have to restrain myself from curik-curik makan. *LOL*

However, since I didn't have any stitches after labour, I can somehow skip the extreme pantang. I can still enjoy nasi impit with rendang ayam but no no ketupat *cries blood*.

The great thing about pantang is when you don't have to do other things rather than look after you baby and yourself. I had my meals for 6 times a day without having to worry on gaining weight. I lost my weight after a week despite eating like a hungry monkey and was back to my pre pregnancy weight *yeay me*.

Makan was never a problem to me. Orang lain kebanyakkannya tak ada selera masa pantang tapi aku sangatla berselera masa pantang. I can finish a full plate of nasi during lunch and dinner. How cool is that? My favourite dish would be ikan merah masam asam with lots of ginger and onion + sayur air sawi. Ohhhh, it was my gourmet meal. *LOL* I will have my in-between-heavy-meal snacks everyday. There will be 3 times of snacks in which I will have a mug of hot milo/horlicks cicah biskut kering. The best snack I tell you. Tak payah dapat churros or macaroon pon I was a happy mommy still :)

My mak will prepare a tungku (a huge and heavy rock whick looks like chicken drumstick.mine weighing around 6kgs) every morning and at nights. Masa bertungku ni kena selimut badan, put on socks and switched off the fan and it should be around 1 hour per session. I sweat like a pig and that explained why I lost weight so quickly.

At nights, my sister would wrap a bengkung on me which I totally love. The bengkung lasted until I finished my confinement period and it shaped my body and shed all the baby fat on my tummy.

Oh my mak is a very strict confinement lady *ahahahahaha*
She'll never let a day goes by by not doing all the pantang routines. During my first time, I was so close to crying when I was force to tungku and bengkung but now I'm loving all of it.

I know some people despise confinement period because they cannot eat so many things and they cannot even go out of the house. As for me, I enjoyed it so much. It was when I can spend the time on my own and I can bond with my babies.

So ladiesi, please do pantang after you deliver. You might say that it's not important and you are okay even you didn't pantang afater you delivered but it will be a long term effect. Trust me you will feel that you aged before the time if you skip your pantang days. I have my mandatory 44 days pantang and still under pantang though until the 100th day. You will also amaze at how pantang will help you shed all the stubborn fat without having to cost you any thing.

My Fav drink, hot horlicks and you gotta dunk biskut kering in it. sodap weii.Milo woks wonder too :)

Official pantang attire : T-shirt + kain batik + socks

My lavish pantang meals :)
Till then..later alligatorrrrrr


Welcoming baby pumpkin #2

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

It's a long hiatus indeed. I am officially a mother of two boys. Alhamdulillah I safely delivered my second bundle of joy two days before Eid (25.06.2014). I am so happy now that our little family tree has somehow expanded and Inshaallah kalau ada rejeki tambah lagi. As for now, I would want to wait until the little one is 3-4 years old.

This shall be a long post though. Let me share my labour experience but mind you people that everybody will have a different experience. So no worries if you come across gruesome story about giving birth because yours might not be the same as what you've read. I just would like to put my labour experiences in black and white so that in the future I can read them back and Inshaallah my kids would be able to read and know how hard it is for their mom to push them out.LOL!

I was very much nervous to give birth this time. This is because my EDD is two weeks after Eid and based on my previous experience, I delivered Umar Rifqy two weeks earlier too. I was scared that I might give birth in the car while we were stuck in the massive bad traffic on our balik kampung journey. I was on my early Eid break because I took a week early break so that I can rest at home. I really hoped that I could be in labour early so that I can go back to my hometown for Eid. I literally told the baby inside to either come out early or wait until Eid.hehehehehe. I was so much stressed out when I knew Scha Alyahya already gave birth because our EDD was 3 days apart. *LOL*

Oh, two days before I gave birth, I went to Umra for weekly check up (when you have entered the third trimester, check ups will be done weekly). Dr.Ummul said the baby had not yet engaged so it will be fine for me to travel back to my hometown for Raya. I was so happy when I heard that.

24.07.2014 (26th Ramadhan)

So it was all started on the 24th. At around 12pm-ish, I felt something different. I knew it was true contraction not Brixton Hicks. I told my sister about it ( I stayed with my sister since the day I started my holiday so that if anything happen, I have somebody to help even she doesn't know how to drive) and did so to Mr.Hubs. He said that he will be back early and I was not really worried because it was still mild and 15 minutes apart. Since it was Ramadhan, I prayed hard that if I really have to be in labour, I wanted it to be after Iftar (mind you I never ponteng puasa since the first day of Ramadhan and my baby was cooperating and behaving so well. Hi-5 for that baby!!).

Mr.Hubs came home after iftar and we went to Umra for check up.Before that, we took Umar around and bought some food for him knowing that we might end up in the hospital and not going to see him until Eid. I was lucky that Dr. Ummul was still around and she said that I was 2cm dilated. Since this is my second time, so I knew that it would take several hours for me to start pushing the lil one out. Dr. Ummul asked us to come back next morning for check up. We went back home and spend the night with our soon-to-be abang in the family.

That night, I cuddled Umar to sleep and watched the Commonwealth Games. I could feel that the contraction was getting harder. After finished watching Tv I decided to hit the sack as I might be needing a lot of energy to push tomorrow. God, I can still remember how hard for me to sleep peacefully as the pain was getting hideous. I had never experienced this kind of pain when I delivered Umar.I couldn't sleep well.I swear it was so painful that I cry in my sleep.

25.07.2014 (27th Ramadhan)

I woke up super early not because of the excitement but due to the unbearable pain (I was excited but I just want it to be over there and then). I went to the toilet and there was blood stain on my underwear and I know it will be any time then. I woke my husband up and told him and my sister about it. I took my bath and I was very much surprised that I managed to be that calm despite the pain. My sister prepared some nasi goreng for me so that I'll have some energy for the battle. After I kissed my Umar goodbye, we went to the hospital. I held Mr.Hubs' hand throughout the journey with the hope that his strength will transfer to me.hehehe.

We arrived at the hospital quite early and I went to the registration counter and said to the person-in-charge "I think it's a bout time" (She attended me the night before and she knew that it was going to be soon). She just laughed and registered me for check up. I laughed together with her because three days before, when i went for my weekly check up, she said that the baby wanted to wait until Eid and I could go home peacefully and I need not to be worry.I asked Mr.Hubs to tell his parents and my family in Kedah about it. The doctor called me for check up. It was not Dr.Ummul because it was not her duty time just yet. I prayed so hard that the doctor who will attend me is not Dr.Karamjit.

When my name was called, it was a huge relief the the doctor was not Dr.Karamjit.I can't remember the doc's name but I used to have my monthly check up with her and she's a nice lady. She checked and told me that I was 4cm dilated. She asked the nurse to take me to my room pastu suruh nurse tu panggil dia dalam masa sejam sebab dia nak pecahkan air ketuban.

Lepas check up I waited for a few minutes for my room to be ready then the nurse brought us to my room.As we were about to enter the room, I can see Dr.Karamjit at the counter. She asked the nurse and the nurse said she was going to send me to my room.BUT, Dr.Karamjit asked her to bring me to the LR instead sebab dia cakap muka aku dah pucat macam sakit sangat dah (hell yeah memang sakit). I was so nervous and scared. Dalam hati dah cakap "dah sudah beranak dekat Dr.Karamjit lagi. Memang jodoh je hapa ni?" *LOL*

So the nurse brought me to the LR. Dah ready tukar baju and stuff pastu baring atas katil while waiting for the doctor to come (I was still hoping it was not Dr.Karamjit who will attend me.LOL). Siap tanya nurse doc mana in charge then she said maybe Dr.Karamjit. My hubs and I laughed because she was the last person I want to deliver with. Then I was given a medicine to empty my bowel.When I was doing my business in the toilet, boleh dengar orang dekat LR sebelah dok meneran nak besalin. Since it was my second time so memang tak takut pun. Kalau first time mesti aku locked diri dalam toilet tu tak mau besalin *HAHAHAHAHA*
Then my hubs came and join me in the LR while waiting for the doc to come. We chatted a bit,took lots of picture of the huge me and waited patiently for the doc.

Then, Dr.karamjit masuk *senyum tawar*. Dia nak pecahkan air ketuban. She told my hubs to wait outside (He wouldn't dare to stay.*LOL*). It took only a minute and then pop dah pecah. Dr.Karamjit cakap air ketuban rasa panas sebab kurang air. I told her that I was fasting and that explained why. So she asked the nurse to put on drip. Masa ni Hubs was there tapi sanggup tak tengok. Dr.Karamjit and the nurse chatted with us while she was putting on the drip. She told my hubs to be next to me during my labour tapi biasala sebab takut pengsan dia tak nak. The nurse @ Mdm Kwan and Dr. Karamjit dok reassured him to stay. Siap cakap berkat bulan puasa and with him on my side nanti senang nak besalin. I just laughed because I knew he won't. Dr.karamjit siap cakap nak ikat dia dekat katil so that he won't leave. He held my hand and stayed on my side the whole time sambil berzikir and baca some surah to me. Mdm.Kwan came every half and hour. She checked on me while filling up some forms and asking a few questions regarding my previous labour. She told me that she will teach me some techniques to help ease the pain without having to take any painkiller or epidural which will cost some on the bill. Mdm.Kwan is a very nice person. She told us a lot of stories and her experiences of being a nurse for 40 years. Doktor masa check up tu pun naik dalam sejam macam dia cakap nak pecahkan air ketuban tapi Mdm.Kwan informed her that Dr.Karamjit had done that so she wished me good luck and went back.

About an hour macam tu Mdm.Kwan tukar drip baru and she was asked to insert some medicine to the drip by Dr.Karamjit. Mdm.Kwan said that the baby should and will be out before she ended her duty that day. Dia siap suruh zikir and baca doa lagi and told my I will be ready to push by 30 minutes. Dr.Karamjit came and said that her duty was about to end and she remind Mdm.Kwan that it should be Dr.Ummul who attend me not other doctor. I was so happy to hear that.
After 20 minutes the contraction was getting stronger and hideous. Mdm.Kwan taught me the technique she promised earlier. And to my surprise, it worked. The pain went off when I did the breathing techniques she taught. *WOW*.

I had never felt any pain stronger than this before. It felt like I was about to die and I was struggling to breath properly. Masa my first labour pon tak sakit macam ni. Lagi 5 minit nak besalin baru rasa sakit nak push the baby out. Patut la orang cakap sakit macam nak putus nyawa. Seriously macam nak putus nyawa. Dr.Ummul came and checked on me. She told Mdm.Kwan to call her when I am ready to push.

Hubs kept on reminding me to breath properly and recite some doa and zikir to lessen the pain. After 30 minutes of awful and hideous pain, I told Mdm. Kwan that I felt like pushing. She called Dr.Ummul and by that time everything was ready (read: the equipment). My hubs was still beside me holding my hand. I was so closed to crying when he wanted to stay and give me support.
Dr.Ummul said that I can start pushing whenever I was ready. Just so you know that we should and must push when the contraction came. Bukan main push suka hati macam dalam TV okay? Drama ja semua tu! On my first push, it was a long one and the painful one because time tu la crowning (sila google untuk tau apa itu crowning). Then the contraction gone. Dr.Ummul asked me to recite some zikir while waiting for the contraction to come. Lepas tu datang balik and I pushed. But Dr.Ummul said my second push was not a correct one and I knew it as well. She also said that the baby's head could be seen already means that it should be out soon. The third contraction came and I was so ready to push. It was the longest push and I pushed with all my might that I myself wondered where the strength came from. Finally we can hear the little one crying so loud at 12.52pm. I could see my hubs smiling and I myself couldn't stop smiling. All the pain was gone when I see the little one. It worth the hideous 11 hour of labour pain. Mr.Hubs cut the little one's umbilical cord too. How precious ;)
While Mdm.Kwan cleaned the little one and hubs being a paparazi, Dr.Ummul took out the placenta and boy it was the goriest thing ever because you can see so much blood coming out from your huu haa. What makes me happy was that there was no stitches needed as 'it' was intact. *pat my back*

When everything was okay, I was pushed to my room to rest. It was a tiring labour as I didn't have enough sleep and the contraction pain was the longest compared to my first one. I am proud of myself that I can go through the pain without taking any painkiller and I know it was the best decision ever even though the pain was indescribable. It was out of the world. But to potential mommies out there, please don't be scared as the experience/pain/journey is different for each person. You might have a smooth one. Hey, my first one was an easy one. So yeah, it's your luck and takdir.

So, introducing our second pride and joy, Uzair Rifdy Bin Shaiful Anuar. Weighing 2.85kg at birth

This is him in mommy's womb. Week 30. See, he was smiling :)

Me in the LR. My tummy looked weird because there was this CTG thingy on it 

Hot from the oven :)

His first month. Weighing 4.6kg

His smile is addictive.

My every morning view

His latest picture. 2 mo weighing 6kg++

Mommy, daddy and abang Umar love you baby. Hopefully you will grow up as a healthy and happy baby. Jadi anak yang soleh ye nak?

Phewwww..finally I managed to finish this long post after god knows how many attempts. Dah boleh buat post lain. nanti buat post pasal confinement period pulak okay? Happy reading.

Mommy of two handsome boys :)

p/s: I tried to upload a video of him right after he was out of my womb but there's something wrong with this lappy. There are some other pictures too but too bad tak boleh upload. kalau boleh nanti i'll update :)


4th year journey

I just can't believe that we (me + hubs) have entered our 4th year of marriage. It feels like just yesterday that we got married. Anak pun dah masuk dua orang. I'm blessed and couldn't ask for more. Alhamdulillah :)

Nak cerita pasal our 4th anniversary the other day. When people/couples/hubs and wife celebrate their anniversary, they normally go out on a romantic date/lunch/dinner. We used to do that before but now, being a busy bee he is, we didn't have the chance to do so. But, I'm still thankful that he remembered the date and wished me when the clock struck 12 a.m on 25.08.2014 (he wasn't home that night, was out at his working site). The next day, he came back around 8 pm-ish and brought me and Umar to his site for the sake of spending some time with us on our anniversary. He was supposed to work that night but he went there and delegate the work to his staff and we went back home. It was rather a quick sneak out. He kept on apologizing for not having a real date like we used to have and for not being there for me everyday. I know he does all this for our future so I didn't whine like I used to. Sedih tak cerita anniversary kami?hahahaha.  But all in all, I know he loves me with all his heart. No worries baby, there is always next time :)

I should be thankful for still having him near me even he lately he comes back twice or once a week only (I have to bersabar sampai bulan November ja. Once the project is done, he's all mine..erk..ours). Wives yang husbands off shore tu lagi sedih jumpa once for 3 months. So I am still considered as lucky. Sunyi memang sunyi, especially when I am left alone at our house with the kids. I have to do everything on my own. That's why I spend some days at my sister's house. Lucky me to have siblings nearby. He has to do all this because we wanted our kids to have a better future. Everything costs a bomb nowadays especially education. Nak hantar anak pergi good kindy pon registration dah RM1k. Tu tak masuk monthly fees lagi. So in order for them to have a better life, we have to sacrifice a bit. Hopefully our kids will understand and be thankful to have him as their dadday because he has done everything that he could to provide us with a good life since kami bukan datang dari family yang kaya raya. Setakat ada rumah, kereta and cukup makan pakai, that should be enough.

So dear Mr.Hubster,

Thank you for all the hard work you do for me and our babies. I know you are a great husband and daddy and I couldn't thank HIM enough for sending me you as my husband. Thank you for listening to my endless and silly grumbles and whines. Thank you for cooking me delicious food and make sure I eat enough food. Thank you for taking me everywhere I want to go. Thank you for putting up with me and the kids. Thank you for lending your ears whenever I need someone to talk to. Thank you for laughing at my silly jokes and lending you shoulder when I cry. Thank you for being with me in the labour room even you have hemophobia. Thank you for making me who I am today and most off all, thank you for your unconditional love and thank you for loving me for who I am, Masyaallah you are generous with love.

Alhamdulillah I'm blessed with a great husband and kids. You are my better half and you complete me. I love you to the moon and back baby (excuse my cheesiness, sila muntah sekarang!).



Random thought of moi

I've read somewhere about prioritising certain things in you life. It hits me hard on my face. Terasa bersalah pulak bila dah baca sebab selalu sangat prioritise unimportant things than what I should and selalunya pada benda yang hakiki la (work related matter, gaji dibayar untuk kerja hakiki tapi buat benda yang tidak dibayar gaji). Let's say kalau buat benda yang bukan priority tu time weekends should be no problem la tapi pi buat time kerja. *tsk tsk tsk*

Bersalahkan aku? Berdosakah aku? Haihhhh!

Time kerja kadang-kadang selalu mengelat. Lepas lunch hour boleh pulak pi jalan-jalan, shopping bagai. Apala hang ni Tim! Tapi tula yang best and excites me, tambah-tambah kalau ada gang sekepala.hehehehe!! Tapi sometimes we need to do things yang boleh buat kita semangat sikit since work related matter ni selalunya sangat routine kan? And since i'm in teaching line and bukan 24jam ada class so tduring free time tu boleh la kan buat benda lain sat?NO?? Ewah, sempat pulak nak memenangkan diri. Tapi tak la selalu aku buat macam tu. Takdela aku lagi pentingkan/focus dengan benda yang bukan hakiki dari yang aku patut prioritise. So far I'm still on the right track.

BUTTTTT, having said that, still rasa bersalah. Okay hopefully after this I'm able to prioritise things which I should/must and put aside the unimportant things for a while. It's a kind of Jihad as well kan? hehehehe!!

Enough said, dah pi buat kerja nu Tim oiiiiii!!!


I"m a B..B..B....Busy BEE!!!!

Last week was indeed a super busy weekdays that I've ever encountered.
It started off real bad on Wednesday when we had registration for new students then I had to invigilate EPT (English Placement Test) that very night. The test started at 940pm (it was scheduled to be held at 9pm but thing didn't go the way we planned) and the test ended at 1040pm. I was lucky that mr.hubster sent me to the office that day so he had to fetch me back later on which was a HUGE relief to me. If not, I have to drive on my own in the middle of the night. Creepy that is. When the test finished, we had to sort the scripts for the lecturers. Everything was done at 1130pm. Mr.hubs brought Umar with him. Pity my babies they had to wait for me forever, at least to me :P

this was taken during the EPT
Pic courtesy of Rosy's instagram :)
We arrived home when the clock struck 12am and I was super tired that I couldn't be bothered to take bath. I just washed my face and change clothes and hit the sack. Thennnnnnn, Umar decided to be cranky and super clingy even though he was sleepy. I can finally have my peaceful sleep at 230am.

The next morning, I had to wake up at 6am since I have an appointment with my doctor. It was the hardest ever time to wake up. I swear I could fall asleep while waiting for my turn. Then me and hubster went to buy breakfast and we have to be back at the hospital at 930am. Everything was settle around 1130am and we headed home. I was so tired and sleepy and hungry at the same time. I had hard time to take nap since my baby is awake. Can you imagine that?

Okay, then I had to mark the EPT scripts because it was due the next morning. I was so close to crying while marking the scripts. I had around 70 scripts to be marked in only a few hours. I literally looked like a panda that day.

ni la EPT scripts. Hazibul hazab nak menanda hokey!
The next day which is Friday, I was busy with keying in the EPT marks then after lunch hour, me and my colleague, Syafiqah, had to stream the students according to their level. We had a very difficult time streaming the students due to the number of students and technology glitch. We managed to finished our job at 830pm. There was no more car left at the parking space and it was so freaking dark. I arrived home at 9pm-ish.


See how busy I was last week? I'm not complaining though. It's just that I felt super tired and my entire body was aching like hell. Tidur tak cukup & tak tentu hala buat badan berangin je. That's why I feel like murdering people who complain about their timetable and whatnot to me after everything is done. Kalau salah sikit ja kena sembur, padahal macam nak gila orang buat timetable and stream students bagai.  Yang tu tak ada pulak nak cakap thank you kan? My colleague yang baru buat timetable this semester pon rasa nak quit the job sebab stress. hahaha! kesian Syafiqah. Been there done that dik. You'll be immune to it sooner or later. Next semester keisan pulak because she might have to do all these on her own since I'll be on my long leave until November.

Dah habis minggu busy. This week new semester starts so say hello to new faces and challenges. Hopefully I'll be able to undergo my 6weeks of lecturing peacefully and smoothly :)


Umar's milestone

So today i'm gonna share Umar's milestone. He's going to turn 3 this year so there are a lot of things that he learned and encountered throughout his 3 years life. He's a very talkative boy that sometimes mommy couldn't handle him. That explains why I love to call him 'Popcorn Royale'.

He grows up together with his cousins and sometimes it's hard to teach him to converse in English. Whenever he is with me, I try my very best to use as much English as possible as the medium of conversation. He'll listen and use a lot of Malay while he stays with my sister (his babysitter and kekasih gelap). Since kids are able to be bilingual so I guess it's easy for him to pick up the two languages.

I would always ask him "what's/who's this/that?" whenever we come across something or someone he knows or familiar with. He could answer pretty well though sometimes I had a hard time to guess what he's trying to tell me. hehehehe! He will also do the same thing to me whenever he comes things/people he knows. He loves reading his books and I love to buy him books :)

So last Saturday, after I done bathing and just about to enter the room, I heard him talking to himself. He was reading his book on the bed. Then he asked me "mommy, wat tet (what's that?) while pointing at a picture in his book. I couldn't get it at first then he answered himself "dob! (dog)". After that he pointed his finger to other picture and started to say it out loud. I joined him and asked him to guess the picture I pointed. He could remember and he knows a lot of things in the book.
His version are as follows:
  1. Orse (horse)
  2. Pony
  3. Meow (cat. Yes we had a hard time to teach him to call it cat instead of meow)
  4. Chip (sheep)
  5. Ephen (elephant)
  6. Montey (monkey)
  7. Pire tuck (Fire truck)
  8. Ambien (ambulance)
  9. Mototitle (motocycle)
  10. Thomas (train. Too much thomas and friends and yet another hard time)
  11. Train ( crane *sigh*)
  12. Pekho (backhoe)
  13. Tar (car)
  14. Pwish tar (police car)
  15. Mommy
  16. Didi (daddy)
  17. Antle (uncle)
  18. Aunty
  19. Gwempa (grandpa)
  20. Gwemma (grandma)
  21. Boy
  22. Girl
  23. Baby
  24. Banana
  25. Appo (apple)

Those are the words from his books. There are a lot others which he can recall/memorise/know. I am so proud of my baby.

He loves to sing too which he inherits from me and hubster. kadang-kadang dalam kereta selalu nyanyi sampai anak pon dah terikut-ikut. Tula, mommy selalu sangat nyanyi masa mengandung kat Umar :P
He can sing and follow Bruno Mars' 'just the way you are' from the beginning to the end although his pronunciation is so funny.hehehe!

Baby, you grow up a lot more than mommy expected because I still see you as a baby. Tapi anak mommy dah big boy now, Alhamdulillah. Mommy prays for all the good things for you and may you excel now and in the hereafter. I love you so much sayang :)


Sunday Well Spent

Yesterday was a well spent Sunday for me and my babies. In the morning, we went out to buy breakfast somewhere in Shah Alam. Then we watched TV and lazed around while waiting for Umar's nap time.
While Umar was sleeping, my sexy chef prepared the stuff to cook our late lunch since we have a super late breakfast. He decided to make fried spaghetti since it'd be the easiest and fastest meal to cook. I wanted to cook aglio olio but we ran out of chilli flakes and oregano so yeah it turned out to be fried spaghetti ala suka hati. The spaghetti was yummy (anything prepared by him is yummy for me :P) and habis okay? Even Umar loved it too. He asked for it right after he woke up from his nap. Siap tambah dua kali lagi, so much like daddy :)

my plate.mine has a dash of cili padi.barula kick!

babyboo was enjoying is second serving. he just woke up, hence the messy hair

Later that evening, we took Umar to Bukit Jelutong andKuang because hubster needed to settle some work. After that we brought Umar to City One SkyPark  near Subang. It took only 10minutes from our house tapi dari Kuang tu jauh la jugak kan. This is our first time here.
Verdict :

  • Too new and not many shops are opened.
  • Too many unfamiliar shops and restaurants.
  • A good place to take your kids for jalan-jalan without having to overspent.
  • My sister said, the buiding is yet to receive its CF..okay this is scary since the skypark sangatla tinggi and we even took Umar up for sight-seeing. Dah la ramai gila orang atas tu and some parts of the floor are made from glass.
my life

ada budak tak malu naik car hello kitty :P

i was bullied by my son.sebab mommy suka sangat nyanyi dalam kereta :D

We should've bought him to the Main Place at the first place. Boleh la mommy shopping sebab kat situ lagi banyak retail stores and ada Jaya Grocer. So boleh la mommy makan that BIG ASS steak lagi :P
Next time baby, next time!


Sharing is caring

After so much drama of choosing something to wear to the office this morning, my mak gave me her jubah. Bagi pinjam of course. How cool is that to be able to share your mom's clothes? Kalau Salamiah Hasan boleh kongsi baju dengan Atilia and vice versa, aku pon boleh. Aku je la boleh pinjam baju mak, mak dah sah-sah takkan pakai baju aku. hahahahah!!!

p/s: sila abaikan keserabutan dibelakangku itu.thank you 

I've been searching for a picture of my mak wearing the same jubah tapi tak jumpa pulak. Nanti kalau dah jumpa, i'm so gonna put it here. Thank you mak. Jubah mak cantik :) Sayang mak

Boring post for the sake of posting something today :P

Having my brunch (nasi goreng + kentang goreng with ikan bilis + ayam masak kicap = my kinda comfort food) is so much fun whilst blog walking. I can do this all the time BUT I am not paid to only do this though.

However, this will only last for a while. New semester will start soon. I have another 1 week to huhu haha and laze around. Next week pon dah start busy with registration, EPT paper marking + keying in the marks (these 2 jobs would take 1 day only) and then me and my colleague will have to stream the students according to their marks/level. Furthermore, kena betulkan jadual yang dah buat according to the intake. How stressful right?

Having said that, I guess it's okay for me to do the 'lagha' things before the storm strikes :)
Fair enough :P

I'm now busy having a life. I'm happy :)


On En.Suami,Hubster,Hubby and whatnot

mon cheri

So today I'll be sharing/blabbing about my dearest hubster. Bear with me people :)

This year marks our fourth year as husband and wife. Never in my wildest dream that I would accept/marry him but ALLAH is the BEST PLANNER and it was our fate to be together and I will always be thankful to ALLAH for this path.

En.Shaiful is not a romantic kinda guy. He's just an ordinary guy who knows how to put a smile on my face and always tickles me with his jokes. Believe it or not, I never received any flowers from him ever since we knew each other until now (tengok bertapa tak lomentik hubster ku itu) but it never bothers me sebab aku ni bukan la suka sangat bunga tu. Dari bagi bunga baikla bagi makanan and that is what he did and still does.hehehe. He knows that I love food and eating/munching is my favourite pastime :)

As a husband, he takes care of me and provide me with all the needs that I should get even though we do not lead a lavish kinda life. He never pampered me with expensive stuff and I never ask anything expensive from him. What makes me love him so much is the fact that he cooks for me every now and then since he knows that I never like cooking and it will never be my forte. He doesn't mind because he loves cooking. He's my sexy chef :P
Kadang-kadang kalau balik kerja lambat and dia dah sampai rumah, dia siap buatkan air lagi. Baju mesti dah siap basuh, tinggal nak jemur and lipat je. Kalau penat or sakit-sakit badan, cakap je mesti he is ever ready to be my masseur. He's my living Ogawa Machine. hahahaha!! We do fight and quarrel but never on a big isssue. Hello, tipula kalau ada husband and wife yang tak pernah gaduh/ masam muka/ selisih faham. Lagu P.Ramlee pon ada kata "sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit, apa pula suami isteri". The way we gaduh is both of us will just keep quiet sampailah salah seorang tak tahan and will start pujuk (selalunya dialah yang tak tahan kalau dua-dua diam so ended up dia buat lawak bodoh and both will burst into laugh).
Mr.Hubs is a very busy guy. Baru-baru ni company dia dapat buat jalan dalam Desaru Resort so he had to be there for the longest time I could remember. We didn't even get the chance to celebrate his birthday together this year. Before dapat job tu he worked so hard for the tender sampai kadang-kandang he had to work on weekends and balik lambat. Sometimes geram jugak and mulalah kepala otak pikir ke lain tapi whenever he has to come home late, dia akan call from his office or call me by using his boss's. He even dragged me to his office especially on weekends kalau dia kena habiskan kerja tak pon teman dia pergi office malam-malam. I always whine about him not spending enough time with us tapi I know he works hard for us in order to provide us with a good life walaupon tak boleh drive ferari lagi (ehh?? hahahahah!!). As a result, we are now able to settle our house payment which is a big relief to us.

few days after we were officially hubs and wife
our first eid together + Umar inside moi

my sexy chef prepared kuah lodeh for his dearest wife
 As a daddy, he's one of the best yet strict daddy a kid would and could ask for. Imagine he would wake up in the middle of the night (sometimes more than 3 times) to prepare milk for his son. He never wakes me up to do all those thing or sometimes I would call him untuk tolong bancuh susu for Umar and he never say anything about it. Dia cakap now it'll be his turn to wake up in the wee hours sebab sebelum ni when I still breastfed Umar, I had to wake up every now and then to nurse him.  How sweet and helpful can he be right?
He would also mandikan Umar whenever I am tired after work (walaupon his work requires a lot more energy than mine) then dia jugak akan suapkan Umar makan.
 However, I can see that he's going to be a strict daddy. hahaha!! We are not the kind or parents yang say yes to everything Umar wants or does. We do not want out kid(s) to be pampered with materials sampai nanti bila dah besar jadi sangat dependent dengan parents and boleh mintak all the things under the sun from the parents. They need to learn the hard way sometimes. So anak, simpanla harapan nak suruh mommy and daddy belikan kereta bila dah besar. Mommy beli kereta guna duit sendiri tau, daddy je yang dapat kereta from atok masa belajar  (oops, daddy was spoiled by atok then!). I was brought up like that and yet I still can survive so I think it wouldn't be a problem for my kid(s) to undergo the same life.

I can see his joy of fatherhood

our first road trip with Umar to JB
Hubster does not have a lot of friend. After he finished his study, he started to work with his current boss. His boss taught him a lot about life and taught him to be matured.  Sebab tu la dia nampak lagi matang walaupon kami sebaya. His circle of friends tak banyak despite belajar kat banyak tempat sebab he was and is busy with his work sampai jarang ada masa nak lepak with his friends. So his friends are his wife which is me, his boss and his colleagues.

So, those are the things about my husband. I am more than thankful to have him in my life and I couldn't and wouldn't ask for a better one. Allah has chosen him to be with me and accompany my for the rest of my life, InshaAllah. Thank you Allah.

Alhamdulillah for the life I am leading now and with whom I live now.

Thank you sayang, I know you will somehow read this post. I might not be able to express my feelings orally so this is one of the medium to express my gratitude and love to you (sorry ter'cheesy' sikit and pardon me for the PDA yeah?). I love you to the moon and back infinity times (sila muntah di tempat lain ye?)

My joker + entertainer + BFF



Food Glorious Food

I always love home made spaghetti bolognese. My version of bolognese has a hint of spicy taste which me and my sisters learned from our aunt. I've been cooking bolognese since high school and my friends know that it would be one of our favourite raya dishes :)
I've tasted many bolognese sauces but nothing beats what we prepared at home (kedengaran riak disitu :P).
I never fancy the real bolognese sauce due to its sourness. Alahai tekak melayu kan? Makan western food pon kena jugak bagi pedas-pedas baru la da bomb.
So this morning, my sister made bolognese for breakfast since it's the simplest dish to be prepared in the shortest time. We basically would add chili sauce and some curry powder to make it spicier. However, at that moment, my sister mistakenly put ABC chili dipping sauce and her bolognese turned out to be super spicy. Macam makan sambal tumis which I totally love. I will definitely add that freaking sauce in my bolognese after this.

Up : Before
Down : Aftermath

Itulah rupa paras bolognese yang my sister made. It looks normal but look can be deceiving people. Kalau mat salleh makan mau ulang alik toilet. My mak who doesn't like spicy food at all siap carik chocolate after she had some of it.
There is some sauce left so makan dengan fries. OHEMMGEE it's so good. I think it would taste a lot better if there's cheese on top of it. Mr.Hubs loves having the sauce with fries. Tapi takde la pulak gambarnye. Next time baby, next time!

Ok dah, pi buat cepat.


Family Tree

My little family 

during our short vacation last year

my precious 

Is it even healthy to be this in love with you both?

This family tree will grow soon, InshaAllah :)

Imma Proud Wifey & Mommy

My living proof

How can this little human being be so addictive?

I can never get enough of the eyes and smile. I sometimes wonder whether I will or could love his other siblings (InshaAllah in the near future) the same way that I have on him. Hahahaha!
He is so mini me. I don't know how my husband manage to handle the two of us. 
Me and Umar are so close. He is super manja whenever I am around especially these days. Mommy this and mommy that. It seems like he's glued to me. Kalau mommy masuk toilet pun kadang-kadang tunggu depan pintu. Macam la mommy nak lari. We are like bff. We annoyed hubster sometimes...erk..most of the time.. Hehehehe!

No matter how much you grow up and how many other siblings you are going to have in the future, you will always have a special place in mommy's heart.
When you grow up in the future and become a young gentleman, please don't be ashamed to love me, hug me and kiss me the way you do now even in public. LOL!
I know you will be a good big brother to your future sibling(s).
Mommy loves you and will always be. I promise to be near you and support you during the thickest and thinnest.
I pray for you excellence in the world and the hereafter.
Please bear with me and daddy even when we grow old and grumpy. We are just a plain  paranoid parent who sometimes tend to be overprotective. heheheh :D

Umar Rifqy Bin Shaiful Anuar, you will forever be my baby. Note that :D

Much Love;


Let it go..let it go..

I was scrolling my instagram yesterday when I realized that I had one friend request which suddenly made me realized that forgiving and forgetting is a way for me to let go of the past. Well, it doesn't mean that I still hold on to my past, I had gotten over and done with it years ago. Now that I'm living in the world with my loved ones, I am thankful to HIM for directing me to this path. The path that I never knew I would be taking which somehow leads me to my happiest though by taking the path that I did, I hurt so many people including myself. If not by taking the path, I might end up nowhere and might as well not becoming a mother still.hehehe. So cheers to forgive and forget :)

p/s: yes, I have forgiven you. I should have thank you for this wonderful life I'm having now :)

have a great day lovelies :)


On Motherhood

This year marks my third year of being a mother. I have so much fun handling my baby (erkk..not so baby anymore but will forever be my baby) despite so many obstacles and hurdles that I have to undergo and eventually overcome. So cheers to motherhood :)

There will be times that you feel that you will need more than 24 hours a day in order to do all the tasks and put everything in its place perfectly. I did feel down several time especially when  Mr. Hubster has to be out station for a few times and still be going out until he finishes his job. At that particular time, I felt that I was not a good mother. I had to take care of Umar who was unwell at that particular moment. I had to take him to clinic, woke up in the middle of the night to prepare his milk ( Mr. Hubster does this every night when he is around), took him out to run errands and did so many things which are done by Mr. Hubster whenever he's with us. I guess I am being papered too much by him that I kinda feel lost when he's not around especially with my condition now. hehehehehe. However, he still want me to stand on my own feet. I'm lucky and thankful that I can drive on my own so I don't depend on him to take me to places that I want or have to go.

So, next post gotta be on fatherhood. hehehe :)

source of graphics : Google