Ramadhan Kareem

it's Ramadhan already.how time flies so fast nowadays and we are now in the Holy Month,to be exact the third day of fasting.ngeheee..alhamdulillah everything goes on smoothly without any problemo.

hopefully this year's Ramadhan is better than the years before.have a great Ramdhan everybody.

love;

Tim

before and now makes a big different

before this,i used to show my feelings and emotions towards the one i love because i thought it was really important to show whatever you felt inside towards that person.i tend to do anything in order to make that person realize how much i treasure and appreciate him as somebody special in my life.i wouldn't mind if there were many bad things i heard about him as long as i know him.yes,i knew him inside out.he couldn't keep anything from me because at the end of the day,i would know all the shits he left or made.seriously i wouldn't mind.i thought he would be the last person i love which means that we would end up getting married and have a wonderful journey ahead as an item.

but..we are just human.we can only plan but He has the answer and whatever happen is written by Him.we could just Redha and accept everything wholeheartedly without questions.

now,we lead our own life.i am happy with what i have and with who i am now.so does my Past.my Past has his own life as well,and hopefully he's happy with the life he choose.

but,being with my Future,i am not able to show that much feelings and emotions as what i used to give and show before.it's not that i don't want to be fair or i still think that there is still some hope with my Past but i am so scared that whatever happened to me before will happen again.i mean,my Future will do whatever my Past used to do.i know it's not fair to my Future for having to undergo this phase because i know my Future is not like that.but i just can't help it.i am effin scared.it's not fair for my Future but i really don't want to end up like before.HACK!

i know my Future loves me for who i am and willingly accepted me for whatever happened to me before.my Future is my best friend who will always be there for me under any circumstances and is ready to offer his shoulder for me to cry and lean on to.i couldn't be happier and thankful for that.

i love him too but i don't know how to show what i am supposed to show.i know some times my Future feels neglected and offended of what i said and done but he never gave up on me.it vividly shows in his eyes every time we argue for what he is supposed to get but he didn't.i know he is sad.i am so sorry for that.but please know that i really treasure this relationship and we are going to go one step ahead soon so i hope you will be patient and always be there for me and us.

i'll try my best to change and give you whatever you are supposed to get.you are the most important person in my life after my family.you are my strength.i just need you to be patient.je t'aime =)

i am having a wonderful life with my Future now and insyaallah forever.

loving her Future;
Tim

oh induction training !!!

i had to go through an induction course for 3 days 2 nights starting last Thursday until Saturday.it was tiring and my body is aching until now.too bad.

the induction course was held at Agrotek Garden Resort,somewhere in Cheras.when i arrived,i was so shocked to see the condition of the place.tempat tu bukan la tak cantik ke buruk ke hape tapi kat kawasan bukit.Oooo MAN!!!u should have known the condition la kan..mendaki bukit like heLL!the first time sampai da kena turun bukit yang sangat curam,dah la pakai heels.it was like "what the hell am i doing here actually?"!!!!

i was placed with the people i never thought i would be staying with.those whose names not to be mentioned here.aku dah agak down but then aku terpikir aku just akan spend my night with them,not the whole freaking day.ok laaaa...but then when it was the time for grouping,i was in the same group with the effin annoying guy on earth and 1 or 2 of them which somehow i would never want to be in a group with.CRAPPPPP!!!!!!!!

i have to be in that group from day one until the end.haih,bak kata rose "tak aura langsung.LOSER gile la group2 ko ct"!!!hahahha..yeah,i felt the same way too!

petang tu ada outdoor activity.the game was ok la but then when u didn't do exercise for a long time,your body will somehow react extremely to it.my whole body is aching especially my legs.

the next day,early in the morning,i have to join Jungle Treaking which was my freaking first time in my 25years of living on earth.it was so tiring and aku sangat semput ok!the journey was too long for me plus i have to be in a group with those i refused to be,lagi la sangat penat and stress.

then the whole day was filled with activities and the next day we have to wake up at 330am for Qiyamullail.oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!

we went back on Saturday evening at 2pm.i refused to use the bus especially when i think about how the driver drove the bus on our journey there.get a freaking driving lesson pak cik!!!!!i asked my bucuk to fetch me instead.rose followed me as well.finally,the friggin 3 days ended.i was so thankful!

if i were asked to go to that place again,i would cryyyyyyyyy!haha..but it was a good experience though.

Tim

:)

thank you for everything.u mean so much to me :D

i love you

mixed feelings

i'm happy with my life now,with a good partner, family and a circle of good friends.i'm blessed.thank u Allah.

but there's something i need to worry still,my abah.prayers are the least we could offer.

dear abah,please know that we are here for u and will never stop praying for your well being.

love;

tim